I can tell by the statistics checker for the blog that this week’s posts have been rather boring to those who have access to it. Most read the title through their connection on Facebook and didn’t proceed further. That’s okay. I understand. I was rather bored when I wrote them. I went so far as to not even write on Wednesday. What seemed like a great idea last week for this week seemed to become a mediocre idea as I wrote for Monday and finally landed in a weak thud on the study floor at the end of this week.
I just now laid down on the floor with the poor idea…and Beans. The dog and I just stared at the little idea and watched it curl up in the fetal position and sigh its last sigh which sounded an awful lot like my computer trash being wadded up and tossed into my computer’s trashcan. Crinkle. Crinkle. Whoosh. Slam.
Today, I decided to take Michael Hyatt’s idea for writer’s block and write about something personal.
I am 47 years old. I feel like life is flying at warp speed and I just cannot keep up with it at times. Some days, I seem to do good with managing the different responsibilities. Other days, I feel like a total failure.
I think I have fallen into a trap that so many of us fall into believing.
It’s the trap of “I must succeed”. At its root is the belief that I don’t please God when I don’t measure up to the standard I have set or have accepted from others as the right standard. Attempting something is not going to cut it. Succeeding is the point. Win this game. Write the best post. Teach the best lesson. Cook the best meal. Weigh the best weight. Walk the required number of steps each day. Follow the plan. Say the right words.
Sadly, this is not a new issue at all. I have blogged about it before on the other place I blogged before updating (to be better) and getting a domain name (better advice I was following). That post was specifically about not measuring up appearance-wise. Click on the underlined words up there if you want to go and read it. Then, come back.
Am I talking to myself today?
Even in the opening paragraph up there, I was doing it…checking the statistics for the week on the blog. I might as well open up a pandora’s box of flying measuring tapes attacking me.
Guess where they attack? My mind.
That’s where they attack you too, isn’t it?
When this happens, what’s a girl to do?
Maybe we should make this our plan of attack:
- Put on the armor of God each day – Ephesians 6:10-20
- Frisk these thoughts at the door of our minds – Philippians 4:8-9
These accusing, condemning thoughts that come my way are so brutal. I, like you perhaps, need to not let the enemy’s false and mocking accusations (he is the accuser of the brethren, remember) put me into a panic mode that cripples me and disables me to be productive for a period of time in an area where I know full well God has called me.
Because when I do give him that toe-hold, he slips into my head and massages my mind with horrible thoughts of myself that take me from…
engaged in ministry
to disengaged and withdrawn
to fearfully flat
I was reminded in Bible study yesterday that when Satan came to Jesus in the desert, he twisted the truth of God. I see that when things like this happen to me personally, too. Satan is trying to cause me to question God right along with him. In this biblical scene, though, is something far more critical to us who battle with this. And that is the method that Jesus used to combat His enemy and ours – He spoke the truth of God into the midst of the situation.
Rather than crumble and cave, I can stand strong in the power of my Savior and the truth of His Word.
If you struggle with this same issue, cling to the truths found in the Bible. Find them as though you are mining for gold and hold them as a valuable treasure in your heart. Know them in your mind, but believe them with all your heart. Click on the link below and listen to Mandisa sing a song. This one ministers to me when I am battling this issue. I hope it ministers to you, too.
If you have ever experienced this, what verse speaks truth to you at such a time. Please leave a comment below. Thanks.