Out On a Limb With the Oak Tour ’09

Posted by on Oct 5, 2009 in Blog Posts | 2 comments

“I will sing of the steadfast love of the Lord, forever;

with my mouth I will make known Your faithfulness to all generations.” – Psalm 89:1 (ESV)

I wanted to thank you for praying for the ladies at the retreat Saturday. I also want to thank you for praying for me. I had such a peace and they were so precious! The Difference Ministries led us in good music! It was a great day.

About a two months ago, I began sleeping horribly. I would wake up with a plethora of panicked thoughts. “How will you whittle all this information down?” “What will you wear?” “What if you mess up big time?” “Remember those pounds you wanted to lose? You failed!” After waking in the middle of the night to these thoughts and others, I would have a very hard time going back to sleep. My mind would race with all the thoughts of Scripture references to use at times like this, but I would struggle to fall back to sleep. Sometimes, I’d just get up thinking that’s what God wanted me to do anyway. Pray about it all. So, I would move into the den and sit in the dark and pray.

In preparing for Saturday these months, the topic could have gone in any number of directions. When I finally looked at the passage for the umpteenth time one day it just seemed to come together and in the dark, sleepless nights I sensed God saying to just go out on a limb since that’s where all the fruit is. Then, one day as I scoured the internet for some funny one-liners, that very thought happened to be in print! I about fell out of the chair in front of the computer!

It became a fitting phrase for me when I would doubt the ability He had given me to dig deep in the Word or doubt my qualifications for being one to teach women about biblical things. After all, I don’t have it all together. Who am I to share?

Just as the passage we looked at Saturday is all about God, so going out on a limb for Him is as well. If the motives are pure, the risk of speaking His Word to people you don’t know (for the most part for now, at least) is nonexistent. You say what He shows you in His Word and go with it.

As my friend says often, it’s not our ability but our availability (when it comes to doing things God asks of us). I was available when asked and never dreaded the day as it drew closer. I grew more excited with some doses of nervousness and incompetence tossed in for good measure, but never any dread. That seemed to be confirmation in addition to how the timing of being asked to begin with was. That was an answer to prayer I had prayed in January about what He was calling me to do for Him this year.

I think God had me go through sleepless nights and doubtful fits in order to keep me where He needed me to be – out on a limb of whatever it was that particular day prior to THE day (fear, humility, vulnerability, etc.) so that when the time came to an end with these sweet, precious ladies, I had a peace that the limb on which I perched was His arm and all was well.

Let me tell you that those ladies at St. Peter UMC worked hard and tirelessly to get everything ready from decorations, publicity, and food, to cleaning it up afterward. They were welcoming and warm to everyone who walked through their door.

I hated to see it end. The highlight of the day was my mother being there when I was sure she would not be able to come.

And so, the Oak Tour ’09 began Saturday. For now, it looks like it has ended, too. It was a one-stop tour but it was a good time and I thank God for the opportunity. Today, I catch up on my 1 Thessalonians studying and stay away from the phone and Facebook in order to accomplish what He’s asking of me today.

SDG!

2 Comments

  1. Thank you for you time of sharing and for accepting our invitation. I was surely blessed getting to know you as I know all the ladies there were. God Bless you.
    Glenda

  2. WOW! I needed this! Thank you for sharing your feelings, which lets me know that I am not alone in my thoughts.

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