Stuck in Sobering "Between"

Posted by on Jun 14, 2010 in Blog Posts | 3 comments

Have you ever realized that you are not as young as you once were?  I don’t like it when this happens. It happened just yesterday.  Ugh.

When I was younger, I would find a way to somehow identify with the younger star of a movie.  I was younger, she was younger, it was an easy thing to do.  If she was close to my age, I noted her wardrobe, her makeup, her hair style, etc.  I would look at the older women (older than I was) in the movie naively thinking that relating to them in reality was a long time away. 

It’s not as long away as I have thought.  

Yesterday, Rob and I went to see Letters to Juliet.  The story was sweet and the two main actresses played their respective roles well.  Amanda Seyfried played the younger Sophie.  Vanessa Redgrave played the “more mature” Claire. 

However, for the first time, I realized that I am closer in “season of life” experiences to the character played by Vanessa Redgrave.  When I realized it, I wanted to faint. 

It’s sobering to realize this.  A battle ensues. 

My heart wanted to follow the storyline of the younger character as though I were young and could relate to her.  My mind obviously woke my heart up to the fact that I am not.  Yet, I was not comfortable thinking about being a grandmother with my grandchild driving me around Italy in search of my true love not seen for 50 years.  I did the math.  Vanessa was portraying a 65-year-old.  Amanda’s character was probably 25, give or take a couple of years.  I am in the middle of the two, one year closer to Vanessa’s Claire.  Thankfully, too, I was sitting in the theater right next to my true love.  I won’t have to go trekking about Italy in search of him.

It’s not the depth you may have hoped for in a post, but I’m just sharing some of my recent thoughts from time spent in the movie theater between bites of popcorn.

How do you handle the realization that you are not as young as you think you should be? 


  1. It is hard to believe we are entering middle life now. So much of popular culture is beyond my interest now. I am trying to stay up with technology thanks to my husband. It’s not agreeable to leave my youth behind but I hear you are more well adjusted as you age and less concerned with what people think of you. That part is welcome. I grew up with older parents so I have been somewhat aged from way back. The territory is not so foreign.

  2. Well, if it weren’t for my nephews and nieces graduating, going to college, getting married, having children, I wouldn’t feel like I should be approaching another milestone birthday! I wonder about my legacy, having had no children. I wonder if God is pleased with how I’ve spent my days. While I can’t stop the physical signs of aging, I want to develop into a sweet old lady full of grace and gratitude. I find encouragement in Psalm 92: –
    “The righteous flourish like the palm tree and grow like a cedar in Lebanon.
    They are planted in the house of the LORD; they flourish in the courts of our God. They still bear fruit in old age; they are ever full of sap and green”.

  3. Funny you should say this, I just got back from Young Life camp and Sterling went as the Camp Doctor this year. So I kept relating to myself as a Young Life Leader, but they kept introducing me as the “Camp Doctor’s Wife.” Who is that they keep talking about is what I kept asking! It is funny to realize that I am growing up and am an ADULT! That is a JOKE since I feel about 17!

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